A lot of poetry of late. Perhaps it shows a little the movement of my heart. But it seems to me that all these words of mine are nothing unless it moves you to live the faith you’ve been given. Movement takes effort. We can say, “Good God hear my prayer! Show me what to do.” That is good and it is the first step. BUT this is not the end.
Christ grab’s Peter’s hand and pulls him up out of the water. Indeed we have to call out to Christ but Peter first was WALKING on water. So much of discernment is just that. Taking little leaps or gargantuan ones…risk…steps. Of course walking on water isn’t exactly easy especially if the storm and wind blows about. Yet with each step taken, further strength is built to take another. Faith implies bold movement with the confidence that God will hear not just because he can but because he loves and has a plan. After stepping, it is sometimes necessary to regain balance.
The other day, I was in a kettle in Wisconsin with my boy-friend and we spent an hour trying to walk from one end of a massive branch to the other without falling off. It wasn’t easy. Sometimes we would only take one step and find that we were already loosing footing and ending up in the grass. Other times we would take 5 steps and still others we would find ourselves even three quarter’s of the way down and then dance crazily to maintain balance and fall off. There was one especially difficult section that was thinner with a BIG hump just before the end. No matter how hard I tried, I always found myself teetering off just before or after this troublesome hump. My love stood at the end, arms open wide waiting to receive me but I still had to get to him. He had mastered this before me and stood at the end to wait until I could too. “I’ll have a big hug for you! You can do it!”
I’m sure 20 minutes passed and I was constantly reaching the fall off zone and no farther. Then, I began discovering that with every step my balance was straighter my steps more determined and sure. Little by little the nuances of the stick were learned with weight applied and patience. In fact, the more impatient I got the more I fell off. Slowly, carefully after reaching the pinnacle of frustration I made my way. Sweatshirt off…Scarf. This was serious business. Breathe. Pause. Step. “Come Jacinta you can do it! Just breathe. Walk to me!” Breathe…Pause…STEP. I nearly fell off. Breathe…wait. Step…Step…the hump wiggled and began to turn…breath…step STEP step…pause Step…. I was over the hump! Step…step step…breath…totter… And then I did fall but it was into the arms of my beloved. I had made it almost not even realizing it. Those last few steps were in the arms of love.
Doesn’t God work the same way? He likes to see that we trust him. It is the confident trusting prayer that is heard. Tell him the truth. Just like it is. Remind him of his promises. It is not that God doesn’t hear us or is ignoring us. He is right there gazing at us with those eyes of love arms open wide. It is simply this…He could carry us if he wanted but what accomplishment is there in that? Love is definitely not always a feeling but a determination and choice of the will. God comes to meet us even as we fall. It is a participation. God desires us to work with him. Not as a mistreated slave but as his BELOVED.
My help is in the Lord Our God.
Who made Heaven and Earth.
These words are the basis of everything. Do I really see this at the very core of my being? It seems so difficult and yet so simple. The paradox of truth is that if I have not suffering I cannot have joy. Take joy and rejoice in your youth. Follow the vision of your eyes. So what is the vision? What do I want to do to follow you? The BLOOM is in favor of the energy you desire to fill your people with. Help me not get so stuck that I cannot move for this is shameful.
Life comes from freely pursuing the joy that is given me and seeking to live in communion and fullness. The details come and go but you are constant. Oh my lover, teach me to find the fullness of life in you! Because fullness gives you pleasure. Give me the grace to accept myself for who you created me to be and the courage to face the challenges that face me. Positivity, negativity…let me find the middle road and love you in he exact moment that I exist.
Holy Spirit, still my body.
Holy Spirit, still my mind.
Holy Spirit, come to me.
Holy Spirit, open my heart.
There are many voices trying to persuade you to give up.
There are many voices trying to persuade you to not find your fullest potential.
My friend, this occurs every day and every day we must make the choice to stand against the tide.
I stand…I will not move until I am beckoned not by my power…
Not by my might
But by the Holy Spirit who dwells within me.
So what is this? A Voice that is quiet where in stillness we must lay.
A Voice that flares not in huge and spectacular but the small and mundane.
A Voice of Common Sense…
This voice my friend always calls higher.
The question is, will you listen?
It is natural.
But how can we fly if we are afraid to soar?
The thrill of flying is flying to God
Not for the sake of the thrill…
BUT for Love.
For if I have not love…I am
What is your Dream?
What is in your Heart?
Not emotion that fades
Only passion can succeed
when we “com” (with) passio (suffer)
But unless we turn our Gaze to the LOVER
And to his passion are yoked
BUT if I do not move when
The Holy Spirit calls…
Then I am…and have
Transform my NOTHING
So that in you I become
Whatever is true….
Whatever is beautiful…
Whatever is good….
Think about these things.
God is GOOD
God is TRUTH
God is BEAUTY
Reflect soul how do I improve my encounter
What stands in the way?
What’s my gauge?
Media, Art, Thoughts, Music
Do they reflect the good the true and the beautiful?
How Significant is Mary?
You are a “God-Bearer.”
Not God. But His creation.
Specifically to certain ways and specifications.
You are God’s building.
You are beautiful.
You are sinless.
We, in short, are stained by sin.
But you, in fact, were preserved from all sin.
But we too are tabernacles.
Holy Mother, Pray for us!
What shall be done? Many things. But what is accomplished?
Here a restless energy yet tiredness.
Hope she comes…after trial.
Where is the answer sought?
For what purpose do I fear the Hand I shouldn’t.
His plans are not mine and yet
It is that molds me.
Honor? Glory? Pain?
Each in tide I fear yet desire.
Bursts of energy and then…nothing.
Why is it I want, what I do not want
And pine yet do not do?
Ideals are nothing unless they have feet.
Suffering is vain unless given for purpose.
Adoration? But to God alone in silence.
What matters it if men notice?
God give me grace to fight the unseen.
And help me stay the tide and and do more than float
Who but God can carry me?
Co-operate with the tides of grace
And Common Sense will find thee.
Little by little not by perfection bound.
Welcome to a busy life. Ever get the feeling you keep going and going and can’t find that happy medium of normalcy? It seems to me that this life is never normal. You know what? This must be one of the number one myths! If I could just loose 2 more pounds I’de be happier! If I could just be less tired I could _____. If I could have more free time I would be happy! If I could just have a more de-cluttered space I could think better. If only I had a little more time for prayer and soaking in the word. OH! When will my life get back to normal?
🙂 You know what? It won’t. Unless…I strive to better my circumstances little by little. BUT the “normalcy” isn’t one free from troubles and difficulties. There is the weak component of my human experience that requires a little toughening up by practice. Only after death, if I have lived my life righteously striving after God’s way and not my own can I hope to reach the perfection of heaven. We’ve grown up in an age of Prince Charming comes marching in to save the day and meets the gorgeous Princess who now lives happily ever after. But happiness isn’t like that. Yes it grows but like anything it takes a little work.
Happiness is an effect of good choices and decisions but here is the key. The CHOICE needs to be MADE and LIVED…not just once but constantly. God does not delight in death he desires to give me new life and light and place a new spirit with-in me but I have to choose it or I get just stuck in my own little insecurities and woes not taking the step needed that would bring me freedom. God has the big picture and I get so stuck in the little things.
So block your time to DO the things that would make life more _______ if I did ________.